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Having troubles making decisions? What to do and how to act, as an instrument of divinity. Especially as you start basing your reality and your decisions upon true reality, upon divinity, upon consciousness, upon your heart, upon love, and cease basing your reality and decisions upon mental reason, and programs of social consciousness.

Decisions are easy and simple if you follow your heart, combined with consciousness, but you must get to know yourself enough to be balanced within the two and know the two, knowing self. Self makes the decision, because you are the decision. This is the Ankh, a circular energy extending out from your heart chakra up through consciousness, combining direct divine consciousness with feeling and expression of love in the body. With this connection, living as the Ankh, you live in the eternal now beyond time, you are the time master, you are the decision maker and the decision. The Ankh is the combination of the cosmic with the physical world, the divine human.

Decisions are easy to consciousness, because you as consciousness, do not live in the world of fear where there are negative consequences to making the wrong decision. There are consequences to every action and inaction, but consciousness does not judge you as the world does for making the "wrong" decision. There is growth either way right or wrong, if you made a wrong one hopefully you will learn and not make the same mistake next time. If you make the right one then you can pat yourself on the back that you already learned your lesson.

Decisions are difficult for the mental body from the world of correctness, the world of ego. The only reason it is difficult to make a decision is because you are afraid to make a mistake. The only reason you are afraid to make a mistake is because you limit yourself by time. You think that if you make a decision that you are stuck with it forever, that you can't change your mind again. This is a program left over from the old world that said you had to be decisive and responsible and stick to your decisions.

Fear is the key element here, there is fear in making decisions, fear of screwing up. Courage is feeling the fear and doing it any way, so have courage and risk making a mistake, risk making a fool of yourself. Risk making the right decision as well, because this might be your greatest fear - success rather than failure. You may have a program that says you do not deserve goodness, so if you make the right decision, you screwed up again because you do not deserve it.


If I had to give the world just one piece of advice it would be this: be courageous, risk it all, don't play it safe, do outrageous things, be adventurous. Get off on fear, enjoy it; enjoy the feeling and experience of it; the exhilaration that your body feels when there is danger involved; live for danger. Be an adventurous, courageous, transmuter of reality.

The only way to deal with any situation of a deep spiritual and emotional nature, that love brings up for you, is to go right into it, courageously. Stick your face right into the fire and see how hot it can get. Conjure up all your worst fears; think all the worst thoughts that you can possibly think about this situation; feel the deepest pain that you can possibly feel. Get it over with as soon as possible by going deeper into it then any spiritual adventurer has ever gone, and then send it all off through your crown chakra, giving it all to God.

Here's an example: Got a relationship breakup? Go right into all the abandonment, all the loneliness, all the victimhood, all the guilt, all the remorse. Transmute all of these illusions by going right into all the bad stuff, so that you can arrive at the gifts that you have gained from the relationship. Rent every romantic movie you can find, so you will feel all your pain of loss of love, and romance, the dream of oneness and happily ever after. Don't leave anything for later, do it all now! Feel everything now! Don't "play it safe" and deny anything, don't drag out the pain through weeks, months, years or lifetimes, as most people do. Don't let feelings fester into cancer, move on from your past. Don't let your experiences of abandonment and victimhood get you - you are not your experiences; you are not your feelings; you are not your thoughts.

The New Civilization

This new civilization manifesting, is not safe to the old world and its perceptual reality, it is dangerous because it undermines it. This new reality is the only real safety, it is your only real survival and security, because the old civilization is now obsolete, it is an illusion, it is being dismantled and replaced by the new improved version.

If you want real safety, than the new world is for you. If you want the safety that you and everyone else is used to, then it is not, it is undermining to your reality of illusion. This civilization of light will not manifest if you play it safe. You will not remember who you are if you play it safe. You will not experience the magnificence of your beingness if do not rock the boat, and shatter the illusion.

So when you have a decision to make, pick the most outrageous one, the most risky, the most dangerous, because more than likely this will be the path with the most growth. Sure you could pick the gentle path, but will this path actually be so gentle, or will it just take longer with all the same experience drawn out.

If your intention in life is growth and awareness, than isn't the fastest path usually the most outrageous? How many spiritual masters do you know led a normal basic status quo life, not pushing any buttons, not shattering any spiritual illusions, not upsetting any apple carts - not too many I think. I would say that 99.99% of them led totally outrageous, risky, dangerous, adventurous lives; risking rejection, ridicule, physical harm and even death. Each one of them risked it all, they were driven by the passion of truth, they would have the truth or die, they would not live in a world where they could not have their dream, their vision of divinity. Are you willing to be as courageous as them, being afraid and doing it anyway; being afraid and letting love lead you, instead of fear?

Decisions are easy. When you come to a fork in the road, which decision, which choice of how to act or what to do, offers the most growth? There's your choice, very simple, very easy. But of course it may not feel like an easy decision, because the decision with the most growth will be the one that is the most risky. The most risky decision is usually the most exciting, the quickest, the most adventurous, the most dangerous, and possibly the most painful.

With these risks, is the experience of truly feeling the wonders of the workings of separation, complete with its inherent joy, heartache and yes, ecstasy. There is an exquisite ecstasy within the pain. Why avoid pain, pain is expansive, revelatory. There is joy and wonderment within the folds of pain, an experience that you may not have revealed to yourself yet because you have been hell bent on avoiding your pain in the search for pleasure, in your emotional survival quest to avoid the feelings of separation. But the truth will soon be revealed.

When you go deep into pain and suffering, the gift that is revealed is what was safely hidden behind all those layers of emotional baggage, and that gift is your divine essence, your true eternal beingness - that is true empowerment.

"Pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding." "And could you keep your heart in wonder at the daily miracles of your life, your pain would not feel less wondrous than your joy." "And you would watch with serenity through the winters of your grief." Part of "pain", from the Prophet, by Kahlil Gibran.


In matters of the heart, where does the most pain usually lie? Following your heart and risking being hurt somewhere down the line, or playing it safe, not risking the possibility or your heart being broken by living a "safe" life with your heart kept safely protected from harm. Where is the worst pain, love "lost" or love never experienced. Take a chance.

Love is not safe, for love brings up all the parts of yourself that you do not love. Love asks you to risk it all, to un-shield your heart and allow it to experience all the joy, and all the pain that is the wonder and ecstasy of love. The place where your sexual energy is most attracted to, is where the most growth is. Naturally, I am referring to balanced sexuality, lower chakras balanced with the heart and consciousness. This love attraction is the creative force, the energy that generates growth. So whoever you are most attracted to on all levels, including sexually, will be the person where the most growth lies.

Where does love often lead us? Love often directs us to situations that are wrought with uncertainty and risk. Love has us travel pathways that appear to be full of differences, separation and deep painful emotion. Love encourages us to break the rules of relationship and social programming. Love encourages you to explore the inner most reaches of intimacy, the re-discovery of self. The re-discovery of self is the most intimate thing you can do. Relationship is the most intimate way to discover self as you reveal your true self to another, they are indeed your mirror of self.

How intimately will you reveal yourself to another beautiful person, another you? Will you reveal self to self, or still try to hide in mediocrity? Will you accept relationship and love as the gift that it is and all that it brings up for you, or will you avoid intimacy because you are afraid to love, be loved, hurt and be hurt. Are you afraid to reveal the truth of your beingness? Will you play it safe? If you want to play it safe, then please avoid love and relationship at all costs. If you want to experience a steady un-dramatic existence, then please stay away from intimacy. If you do not want to re-discover true self, then please keep that heart guarded by a fortress.

But if you want to be yourself and remember who you really are, then take the leap, risk it all, risk losing everything, risk losing love, risk losing friends, risk losing your job, risk losing your relatives, risk starving to death. Risk gaining everything; risk gaining love; risk gaining true friends; risk gaining your true profession; risk gaining your true family; risk having complete prosperity - risk it all. Risk losing it all and gaining everything; risk losing all you are not, to re-discover who you really are.



"When love beckons to you, follow him, though his ways are hard and steep. And when his wings enfold you yield to him, though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you. And when he speaks to you believe in him, though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden. For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning. Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun, so shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth. Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself. He threshes you to make you naked. He sifts you to free you from your husks. He grinds you to whiteness. He kneads you until you are pliant; and then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God's sacred feast.

All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life's Heart. But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and loves pleasure, then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor, into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.

Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself. Love possesses not nor would it be possessed; for love is sufficient unto love.

When you love you should not say, "God is in my heart," but rather, "I am in the heart of God."
And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.

Love has no other desire but to fulfil itself. But if you have love and must needs have desires,
let these be your desires: To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness. To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingly & joyfully. To wake at dawn with a winged heart & give thanks for another day of loving; to rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy; to return home at eventide with gratitude; and then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips."

From the Prophet by Kahlil Gibran


Admit it to yourself when you do not know what to do, do not arrogantly act as if you have control over your life all the time. Admit it when you feel powerless, and helpless, there is strength in this admission, because you are telling yourself the truth. If you want guidance, go to the highest source you can find.

When you do not know what to do, surrender to the circumstances of the moment, do not try to control in any way. When you do know what to do, admit it to yourself and do not hesitate. Act now, don't wait for better circumstances. Don't wait for better clarity, you are as clear as you need to be in this moment. There is only this moment, no other moment exists. Act now, now is the time! Act now and you are the time master, wait and you are its slave.

When you know what to do, give yourself complete authority and power to act and do what is necessary. Be strong and do not doubt your knowing. If doubt creeps in from the world of ego, shoo it away like a fly, and send it back to where it came. If someone comes to you and questions your authority, shoo them away as well, for they are acting from the world of illusion and do not know what they are doing.

Be Courageous, Decide now! Risk everything, because you are risking nothing! There is no choice, but to surrender to the moment.

Live life, like everyday, in every moment, you are making love!

Yours from free will choice, because I Love You.